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The 5:00 AM Run

| Published Friday, October 31, 2014

It was an early October morning,
While my world continued to sleep,
I rolled out of bed to fulfill a promise.
Stumbled around,
In the cold darkness of my house,
I got dressed, and moved towards the door.
I opened it.
As the cool air hit my face,
It sent a shock throughout my entire body.
I was fully awake.
Looked around at the quiet street,
Lit up only by some houses here and there,
I prepared myself for a therapy session.
This was the only time where I felt alone.
With only the thoughts of yesterday,
And plans of tomorrow,
I prepared to meditate, and embraced peace.
As I took a break from the stress,
I prepared for rejuvenation,
And for my heart to reboot,
I went over the route in my head one last time,
Took a deep breath,
And started to run.

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Checking in...

| Published Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Spring time is finally here...And also my first blog of April?!?!?!?!..I'm slipping, I know.....Well anyway, whats going on my people?? Nothing much here, just maintaining and trying my best not to complain about things that I can not change. I started a new job and so far, it is kinda boring. My 9 year anniversary was on the 28th of March also:) I'm actually writing this at work because of the lack of work that my department has. But from my understanding, things will pick up in a couple of months. School is going well. Currently taking Leadership Fundamentals course (Exciting) and Literary Discourse (Not so Exciting). After these courses I will only have four more classes....Woohoo!!!!! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel...

I have been thinking a lot about a bunch of different stuff lately. One in particular is destiny, and if it exist. What do you guys think about destiny? Do you think you are here for one purpose? Do you think you have found that purpose? Destiny is a strong and mysterious thing if you think about it. Its like, from what you know, it is there and it seem like the only right thing to do is to chase it with hopes that it would define the sole reason why God put you on this earth. Or should you chase it? Or will it just find you? But if you feel that you never reached your destiny, are you considered a failure?

Sorry, just rambling...Just letting the keys on the keyboard fall with each typed word and seeing what formulates. A lot of people should do this...People put so much emphasis on being politically correct and editing their initial thoughts that their true purpose for saying what they wanted to say is immediately lost before they even begin to speak. You see it all the time...The hesitation to click send...The need to take back what you said...The need to back track instead of move forward...I have accepted that I may not say the right things all the time. Hell, I make a lot of mistakes in grammar and punctuation. But when it comes to my blog, I want to be as real as possible...Bad English and all...Haha...The point is to feel and understand where I am coming from.

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I wish

| Published Thursday, November 14, 2013

Responsibility sometimes ruin dreams.

I envy those who are able to live free without having to worry everyday.

I wish I didn't have to work and waste my life away doing something that I hate in order to take care of the people I love.

I wish my wife didn't have to feel pain.

I understand adulthood. I know as an adult, I have to make hard decisions and not be selfish. I get that. But it doesn't change the way I feel about my current situation.

Its like I am searching with a flash light for the light at the end of the tunnel but it is too dark. And the batteries in my flash light will only last so long.

I wish I knew who God wanted me to become

I wish I prayed more so that I would not have to wish.

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Just Thinking About Some Things...

| Published Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Haven't been in the mood to post anything lately...I can tell you right now, that this will happen from time to time.  Just been thinking a lot about the future and how I can change for the better.

I'm frustrated though.

Why is it so hard for me to find a career that I'm passionate about that will allow me to be able to support my family? I mean, can I keep my sanity, do something worth while, and make a little money all at the same damn time? Is that too much to ask for?

I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. I know it's a light at the end of the tunnel, but sometimes it seems as if that light is very dim. I got to continue to squint so that I'm able to see it...

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